mhm.

wow, i haven't written in foreeeeever.
updates;
-IB testing is pretty much over, just my spanish test. & i based my whole life around school and IB and now that that's pretty much i find that i have no life -__-
-i have a job now.
-i gave up fastfood; i need to get fit, haha.
-the touchscreen on my instinct stopped working... but i got a new one.
idk, i feel like there's more but i can't think of any lol.
so tonight's gradnight at disneyland. so i will attempt to stay up all night. most people are taking naps during the day so they can stay up longer, but i can't really
take naps for some reason. & then i would loveee to sleep when i got home from disneyland, but i have a makeup appointment a couple of hours later :/ & then the next day is relay for life. daaamn my sleeping schedule is gonna' be all fckd up. hah.

different.

mmm, things are going okay.
i've been going out more & stuff. lately i've been to like all of erika's meets.
its supposed to be my inspiration to work out more, yet it's failed to do so :/
i'm kinda over the whole school thing, haha. so i think i've studied enough
for the IB tests, i pretty much know as much as i'm going to & all so no need
to stress about it. i got a job this week which was cool, so i'll officially be
a little caesers employee starting tommorow, haha. yeaa i just need to work so
i can buy stuff for college & my dorm and all. i think my big purchase is going
to be a new lens for my camera though. mmm, met new people who i've found to be
veeery good friends :) yay for meeting new people ! but anyways i'm about to go
erika's house to kick it ill write later.

windy.

today was supposed all sunny and nice, but it was suuuuper fckn cold because of the wind -__- school was alright. left sixth period to go to the track meet early & just sat on the bleachers with sandra. hung out with elisha, ebony, and andrea & watched erika throw, which was like my first time seeing my best friend throw :) haha. then kicked it on the field with andrea and make fun of all the people at my school trying to jerk, ahaha. it got even colder and so i was like freeezing my ass off. i actually like track though, watching it not actually running, haha i'm not into running for fun, lol. i'm jealous though, all the girls who run track have a nice ass, haha. but anyways now i'm home & i'm probably just gonna do some studying and then go to sleep, lateeeee.

monotany.

this monotany occuring every day is getting old, lol.
gimme some action pleaaaaase ! haha. i need something
exciting goin' on.

so everyones all planning for prom & stuff now that
then end of the year is coming close & nostalgia is
running high, too bad i'm not going to prom, lol.
which basically exemplifies my whole high school
experience. i had no school spirit, spent more time
in the library doing homework than anything else,
went to like 1 lameee school dance, and never
participated in a school spirit day. haha so basically
high school sucked & my nostalgia is near inexistant.
the one thing i will miss is being so close to all my
classmates. me & jessica were talking today about how
being in IB during high school is just like an
extension of like elementary school and stuff because
we have all the same people in our classes. lol, while
everyone else on campus is all excited at the beginning
of the semester to see who they're gonna have in their
class, we come to school on the first day knowing who
our classmates are, where we're gonna sit during class &
we pull out like assignments we've been working together
for like the last year. lol. it's only in IB that you'll
find like the most artistic, best overall male, valedictorian
and most athletic. & it's so fitting that they whole IB class
was voted Great Oaks Most Stressed, lol. i hung out with people &
became really close with people i never thought i'd
even talk to & even though i'm pretty much considered
an outcast from the rest of the student body, i'd much
rather have that then not have my ib family :)

chillin.

lifes been goin' alright.
i'm doing better and getting all caught up with school.
i came to a manifestation that i need to get in shape
& i will do so by having better eating habits & working
out, which is hard for me because i'm usually always
hungry and i live off of mcdonalds, rolled tacos, &
albertson's fried chicken. now i'll be eating grilled
chicken, grilled salmon, & salads :( this was
like the first weekend i've gone out in awhile. went
to sheri's debut & saw my hula sisters for the first
time in foreeeever, & even had to perform the finale
with them, which i haven't done in like a year or a
little less. saw old friends & made new ones which is
always nice. after that i went to a kickback & just
happened to see the lovely alyssa and brandi whom i
haven't kicked it with in ageeees. weird, i was all
scared to go to the kickback because i thought i
wouldn't know anyone and i'd be all intimidated & shit
but suprisingly i knew quite a few people there, which
was cool. mmm... today i just went to church, luckily
i didn't have to go to st. catherines with my dad &
could go to my own christian church, i guess my dad
still won't accept the fact that i converted out of
catholicism but whaaaatevs. went to pechanga with my
dad and got gelato & caught up on some things with
him which was cool. it's weird like not living with my
whole family anymore, lol. it's much more sooooothing
though, lol. i got some homework done today, not as
much as i would've liked to but i have late start
tommorow so i suppose i'll just wake up early & like
read ceremony & finish my math packet. hmmm.. ceremony's
a good book now that i've been getting more into it and
annotating more. i actually enjoy native american
literature now, everything is so much deeper. weeeell,
i shall end this post for today.

escuela.

school fckn sucks.

hard work.

working hard now, so i can play harder later.


i'm at a crossroads as to what i want to do in the future,
i thought i had everything all planned out, but i second guess
myself on everything.

what i want in life:
-a family & spending tons of quality time with them.
-money & the freedom to buy what i want, with money that i earned myself.
-a career that feels like my calling, what i'm supposed to do.
-to be versatile; write a book, own a restaurant, sell real estate.
-good friends, the kinds i can always rely on.
-hobbies & traveling around the world...
BUT, it seems like i can't have all these things all at one time, it's like one or the other. having to compromise my family for my job or having a career that's my calling, but it doesn't necessarily provide me with all the money i want. geeeeze.

studying.

studying.

lazy.

i feel lazy today. woke up really late, this is like the first time in months that i've slept past like 7'oclock. made waffles, talked to che on aim, & researched PR & ad agencies. i'm in the middle of a career crisis & i haven't even gotten to college yet -__- it's between communications and medicine, both has its pros & cons so we'll see.

to do list(on going):
read ceremony.
finish bio practice IB tests.
buy laundry detergent.
make more bio notecards.
study cold war.
history notes.
history project papers.
history powerpoint.
history unit 8 essay.
drop off money at the bank.
send transcripts to sdsu.
buy black nailpolish.

so long.

& again it's been quite sometime since i wrote, but it's not like anyone reads this so whateeevs. mmm, busy with school stuff lately, pretty much completely occupied with it. IB & AP tests are coming up and i'm takin them suuuper serious because if all goes as planned i'll skip my freshman & part of my sophmore year of college at sdsu. went to the sdsu open house & decided that i'll be dorming my freshman year -__- idk how that will go since all people do there is do at the dorms is party & i need like a 4.0 to get into med. school so that might be a distraction, but we'll see. & me and jamie will hopefully be dorming together so that's a relief. i just can't wait for high school to be done with. sadly i must say that i did not enjoy my high school experience really... if it wasn't for IB i probably would have like dropped out.. well probably not lol but i would have been miserableee. but most of the people i met in IB made it alot eaaaasier and most of the teachers were really passionate, which made me like class. i'm tired of people in IB bitching up what schools they didn't get into lately, & those were the same people that gave me shit about me only applying to like two schools, but i got into my first choice and that's all i really care about. hmmm, i really wish i was a witty writer, or maybe i'm just too lazy to write witty... i wish my blogs were like Ricardo Zarate's columns where he writes about nothing in particular but actually unlocks like a theory of life, haha. Laura's a lucky girl, lol. well anyways today i just went to church by myself :/, went to the bookstore and read ceremony by Leslie Silko while eating a sandwich from cosi, & then went to my little cousins house to pick up stuff & say hi and all. twas' a good day, only downside though is i didn't get to talk to che very much, but there's always tommorow... here are some pictures that i've failed to post lately.



cupcakes, inspired by yellow raft on blue water by michael dorris.

on my way to sdsu.


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3lbs. of loveeee.

my cat's meaaaan.

my study area's getting messy :/

i learned lighting affects on my nikon :)

it's been awhile.

haven't blogged it quite sometime. i've been so sick, busy with school, or stressed about everything else. there's a three day weekend finaaaally. but i need to spend this weekend getting caught up on all my homework, i'm sooooo behind. UGH. yesterday was fun. i got to hang out with steveeeeen! & eva, melanie, jessica, hannah, alex, jhuanna, gilbert, & ivy. went to chipotle, but i'm not a big chipotle fan so i had l&ls. went home did homework, got a headache & so i went to sleep eaaaaaarly. woke up with a headache, went back to sleep, woke up again & now my headache is gone. soooo now i'm on the phone talking to che about his day of havoc and mayhem with the French and Portuguese. lol. i can't find my glasses & i'm too lazy to go upstairs and put contacts in, so i'm blind. i need to do university of phoenix homework. byeeeeeeeee.

loveeee.

yay todays me & che's threeee effin' years! it's been so long, doesn't seem that long though, seems like just yesterday we were kickin' it at the mall on friday nights, haha. & it's cool because unlike most couples we haven't broke up & so we've been together for threee years straight. too bad we couldn't spend today together :( but we'll make it up when we actually get to see eachother this summer i guess ! UGH, i haven't written in quite some time because i've had a bitchass fever & the flu so i've been hella' out of it... sucks. the fevers gone but i still got the flu symptoms :/ but whatevs. school is shit. dance rehearsals after school today for the talent show took forever, but oh yea i had my first & last rival schools performance on tuesday. intrigue got best all female & fedex our brother team got best all male so basically great oak took rival schools. who woulda thought? every year previously great oak was the laughing stock of 951's dance worldddd, feels good to change that. but idk, i'm just gonna do some homework tonight i guess. peaceee.

weekend.

yo;

im sick, this sucks. uhmm let's see my weekend was aight. went to a jerkin' party friday night, haha felt weird since i didn't know how to jerk haha. there was a shitload of ppl there & it was like super crowded & hottt :/ someone prank called the police & said there was a shooting at the party so the police came. They were very nice, as me & melanie made friends with some of them, haha... had dance practice the next day & then went with my mama to victoria gardens to do some shopping and then went back to promenade mall to watch Confessions of a Shopaholic, it was such a cuuuuute movie, funny too. but it made me realize how i shouldn't become a shopaholic, haha. i have a credit card & i haven't used it yet so i think i'm oookay for now... today's a whatever day, just homework & shit. i've gotten to talk to che alot today which was good, we got to go over our wedding plans which is always fun haha. ughh i need to finish my history internal later, but my dad's coming in a little bit so i'll spend time with him & then i need to pick up some papers for my inheritance stuff.

red velvet cupcake with cream cheese icing & pink sprinkles <3

promenade; it's change so much.

i bought a hat.

mi madre y yo.

the tempest by william shakespeare, it's my namesake.

friday.

today was whatever. woke up kinda late, but managed to make myself a chicken quesadilla & chocolate chips cookies :) school was aight. took a history quiz/test thing & i got an eighteen suprisingly, did better than fckn tyler who bragged for like ever & a half about how he got a 21, "the highest grade in the class", but really melanie graded his test & he got a 15, haha. dumbass. uhmmm they had jamba juice at lunch, but i only had my card on me so i couldn't get any :( i don't see why they don't have ATMs at school, people need to get updated with technology. uhmmm went to pechanga after school with melanie to eat, yuuuum. & then went home and did some web surfing for a new lens for my nikon. i think i know which one i want, but we'll see... mmm, might party with melanie tonight, we'll see...

accident.

today was a shitty day. my horrible luck prevailed as i experienced my first real car accident this morning on the way to school, haha. i cut her off & she didn't like break or slow down or anything when she saw me changing lanes & like frickin' accelerated & mirked my BMW with her frickin' escalade, haha. nothing tragic just some car damage, so whatever, i'll be driving around a fucked up car 'til i get it fixed, fuckkkk. i was tired all day at school, & then had to go to dance practice where i was, again, very tired. rivals schools next week, great oaks talent show the week after, and then chapparal's talent show the week after that. sooo much frickin' dancing. kay off to do homework, peaceee&love.

monotany.

today was regular. school was regular & boring. mcdonalds with melanie to talk about my life predicament. library to work on my history essay. & then home only to do more homework. fuck monotonous days.

mondays suck.

yooo'. today was a busy homework day :/

set my alarm for 4:30 but didn't realize that i put it for pm -__- so i woke up kinda late but then i remembered that it's monday & that means we have late start & so i guess i wasn't really that late so i got my english homework & such done. school was boring & i needed help with my UOP homework so i went and asked mr. little the apstats teacher & he told me absolutely nothing, lame ass. but i figured it all out luckily. i took alot of pictures today actually, just because i was bored. uhmmm had intrigue practice after school; fun times dancing to the seeexy beats of benny benassi. rivals schools next week.. are we ready? i think soooo. mmm, went home & did homework, with some occassional myspace distractions. done with my UOP stuff, probably gonna go make a chicken quesadilla and then work on history notes & then take a shower.

my keys are simple.

it was windy in the car.

sandra; playin' in naturaaaal.

my cas hours, i still need alot more.

someones stamp in art that i liked.

ryan 'hole in one' victor.

theeee homies.

evaaaan griggs.

unproductive.

sunday's almost over & i didn't accomplish as much as i needed to :/ but i got to talk to my wonderful boyfriend che alot so that's a plus ! cleaned up my room & got like 10 loads of laundry done, fuck i have too many clothes. met up with the nicole at the library to work on our english presentation on Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston, i wish i actually finished the book so i know what the hell i'm talking about, but we had to go with a jeopardy game by default because we couldn't think of any other engaging activities to teach our peers, haha. but nicole being the loveeely person that she is, provided me with the bio questions so that's something marked off my list. went grocery shopping and picked up a few food items, checked the mail and i got my hello kitty atm card, FIDM debut show tickets, & sdsu acceptance letter, even though i already found out i got in awhile ago. did my university of phoenix homework, well most of it, i'm gonna be hella busy with tommorow though :/ ugh, i'm so not excited, my monday's gonna suck. i gotta wake up at probably like 4:30 and make the jeopardy game for english and maybe do some history notes, then throughout the day i'll be working on my university of phoenix homework, dance practice after school, & then go home and catch up on all my history essays & notes. homeework is fuckin' me up the ass, haha.

sunday.

didn't go to church because i was busy arguing with che on the phone, lol. uhm today's boring, just homework i guess. i'm in a list mood;

homework to do;

• Read Their Eyes Were Watching God
• Unit 7 History Essay
• Unit 8 Hisoty Essay
• Latin America notes
• I.D. Project Papers
• IBbio questions
• IBbio lab
• University of Phoenix Discussion Questions, Group Project, & Research Questions

i doubt i;ll finish everything but the UOP stuff is a must & i guess so is all the history stuff.

breakfast.extended.crepes.

i didn't write yesterday because i was lazy so i'll speak of my last two days :)



yesterday was alright. me & melanie skipped school to do some homework. First we went to Richie's Diner and had breakfast & then went to the library to write our extended essay, i just had to add like a thousand words, but there's not a whole lot to say about the armenian genocide. i got it done though :) one step closer to my getting my IB diploma, yeee. kay then after that i went home & did more homework. as if i didn't have enough school shit on my plate i decided to do a university of phoenix class, but it's all worth it so i spent like my friday night doing that -_- i lead such a boring life.

today;

woke up. didn't have dance practice but went to the farmers market with melanie to get our eyebrows threaded. i found out i can't parallel park for shit. found the indian stand at the farmers market & got my eyebrows done it looks okay, i think i could;ve done better personally, but whatevs, lol. & then we ate delicious peanut brittle and waited in line for like 45 minutes for crepes, and the guy like burnt mine & melanie's because he was new :/ i was supposed to go see my dad tonight but he's in fontana at the track for a nascar race so i'll be doing homework, what else do i do...

here are some pictures from yesterday&today; taken with my nikon, but i need a new lens... that's something i'll save up for i guess.




all you can drink orange juice & melanie's gross potatoes.

sausage & melanie doing her extended.


me reading my shitty extended essay.


melanie eating peanut brtittle & me standing in line for crepes.



melanie & her crepes.

first blog.

yay ! first blog.
i'm too lazy to writing anything right now... maybe later.